My computer freezes a lot :/ Sometimes I wake up in the morning and open up the lid and the screen’s all garbled up and all the stuff I was doing is just gone 
I like Macs a lot, but the hardware sometimes just fails hardcore.
I watched Knocked Up for the second time. It’s still funny 
I took a screenshot of this frightening-looking baby and made it my desktop wallpaper because it cracks me up. I want to see Pineapple Express pretty bad. I was shocked to find that it’s some kind of action film. I STILL WANNA SEEEE IT.
So Clone Wars is out? I keep forgetting the details. I watched some animated version of the clone wars a while back, but I’ve been so out of the loop when it comes to movies. I mean, Pineapple Express has been advertised for probably the last six months. I can’t keep up with stuff going on now, I just hear about movies that aren’t out for like a year and go “is it out yet, is it out yet” like the new Star Trek movie that’s not coming out for a year. I want it noooooow.
I had a birthday cam show today, as tomorrow is my birthday. Are you excited?!??!! I don’t know what I want… that’s why I have a wishlist, so I can keep track of whatever whims that strike me. I like most things 
As if by some huge coincidence, I keep borrowing one of my friends’ iPods, and she offered to get me one of my own for my birthday… and I turned it down, and then they had some freak accident involving a lit candle and the iPod sitting like a foot away… it’s one of those big wide ones and the candle wax busted out of the side (because it was burning ALL NIGHT, not my fault) and spilled out in a magnificent fashion, burying the iPod and its headphones. By some miracle of miracles, this thing is built so well that even with scalding hot candle wax pouring into wherever it can seep, it not only turns on but WORKS. The same for the headphones. Though both feel kind of waxy to the touch… they smell nice… and the wax sculpture looks beautiful.
I got back from shopping and NOT A MINUTE TOO SOON because I had a camshow I kept checking my phone to see if it was almost time. I already read off my huge receipt during the show (IT WAS RIVETING), but here you go again (I’m so sorry Patrick ): blueberries yum, raspberries yum yum, bananas for sucking on, grapes for snacking, orange peach mango juice but at least it’s not “cran”-something, mangos and peaches in case the juice wasn’t enough, fried chicken because I’m a glutton, wheat bread because it’s better than fried chicken, milk obviously, broccoli and salad and carrots because they’re good for me, beef and jalapeno peppers and a green pepper and sauce because it’s CHILI TIME. At some point. Okay, I got some other stuff, but I’m boooring myself. Oh yeah I did get these Cheez-Its that are delicious. Yummmmmmm. I did make sure that the first thing I snacked on was fruit, though, okay
Anyway, my cam show was grrrreat I need more fruit shows. I know you guys enjoyed seeing me sucking off a banana 
Pretty uneventful for the weekend. By uneventful I mean REALLY REALLY uneventful. I’ve been angling to go to the store for some time now (like two days) but no one will go with me raaa raaaaaaaaa I need groceries. I ended up ordering in and getting this weird pasta stuff. It said it was pasta stuffed with cheese and came with sauce. It errr looks like little twisted baggies of pasta and it came with a container of sauce. I was expecting stuffed rigatoni… it ended up being good though Their mozzarella sticks were actually “medallions” and they were round and funny-tasting…
Blah blah blah anyway this is all just a convenient coverup for the fact that I’ve been spending time playing Dope Wars. Jus flipping mo’ weed, mo’ money, mo’ problems, mo’ etc.. I wanna see a moooovie.
Hehehe the “jus keepin it real” tag needs to be the biggest one on the page.
Last night, I had some weird thoughts. Sometimes you just… think. Now that I look back, they’re silly, and I really don’t remember about half of them. Once before I realized “it’s always now” and yeah I see you rolling your eyes and lookin’ away, but I expanded on it in two ways that are totally ludicrous: If it’s always the present, then life goes by in an instant. It has to do with memory. It’s difficult to recall what happened in the past. I had my wisdom teeth removed once and the drugs they put me under with made me lose my long-term memory for probably a half hour. If the difference between my usual condition and that memory loss condition is how quickly I can hold onto the past, then time moves through us rather than us moving through time? How quickly can we process thoughts and how would time pass if our short-term memory lasted hours instead of minutes? Like people say, “it’s all relative” and if so, is that the difference between humans and animals? Part of why many animals live shorter lives?
I don’t often experience the feeling of “snapping to attention” but I do know that when I wake up from sleep, it is “the next day” even if technically I’ve only taken a nap and it is still the same day. What happened yesterday is no longer in my immediate thoughts. There is a difference between knowing what’s going on today, and knowing what you’re doing at the moment. At some point, your attention starts over, but you don’t really notice unless you’re on drugs of some kind (or have an attention disorder, probably), and even then, you forget most of everything up until you regain your long-term memory. Can we think greater than we already do? Is there a longer stretch of time that we can utilize for better thoughts? Sometimes I wonder if one day I’m going to wake up and this life was a dream. Sometimes I think my dreams were some other life. Other times I cycle back to the realization that one day I’m going to be much older, and this instant will be long long forgotten to that distant “present.”
Not very sexy, but just thoughts…
The sweetest sweetness has ARRIVED: This blog is now totally rockin’. I finally got ahold of the design editor thing so I could mess around with the design I was given. Check out the stuff I added: Linkies on the side so you can see all the hot girls I have hot footage of, and a tag cloud (that has a limit of 45 tags!!! what!!! noooo “jus keepin it real” is obviously a tag everyone needs to see). I also got rid of the categories that I’m never going to use, and added dates so I can actually see when I wrote these little blarg entries. There was also a lot of redundancy, with like five things linking back to the front page before you hit the first entry. Anyway, I guess this is all not very interesting, but it looks SWEEEEEET to me. It’s about how I want the layout to be.
In celebration, here is a hot picture:
In other news, I’m huuungry. It’s like 11 and no food. NO FOOOOOOOOD.
I’ve been lazy :’( I don’t even remember what I was doing last night. Oh, I think I was watching Babylon 5. I also was eating a cheesesteak… yes, it’s all coming back to me… mostly because this cheesesteak is sitting in front of me. Ohhhh wait, yes, possibly this screen is most telling… jus’ flippin’ some dope. No, not really, it’s a facebook thing. You, uhhhh, buy fake weed, and then you, uhhh, sell that fake weed. Okay, now that I say it I think I should stop…
I went to Shai’s webcam show More like I had the window open, almost fell asleep before it, and couldn’t figure out why in the world my computer was talking to me. I have a lot of tabs open, so I have to flip through a lot to figure out what I’ve been doing all day 
Shai’s show was HOT. She gets off like a million times I have to shoot with her at some point
I’m really happy to be back home I went and signed a lease, and had a cam show (third in a row)… I came back because someone showed up like an hour and a half late It’s okay, I love you anyway
I went and got TACOS and doritos (and trashbags), but I have to do some official food shopping soon. I’m not planning on going anywhere soon, so I should probably stock up.
I’ve been rewatching BABYLON 5, as is the case when I get other people into it. I have to, you know, watch them to make sure they’re good… also maybe because I’m addicted, but whatever. I’m back up to season 3. The strategy of starting off in the middle of season 2 (The Coming of Shadows) seems to have worked well.
The rest of forever will just be getting caught up on things. Yeah, I still have to watch season 2 of the Wire. Maybe. I heard I can skip it
I am so stuck at the airport. This is no surprise, considering the airline I’m flying Which will remain nameless unless you go to my camshow, of course. At least it’s only been delayed an hour, so I watched some good ol’ Star Trek TNG while I waited. One of my friends was not so lucky and got stuck in the airport for two days over the weekend. Flying is evil, sometimes…
Natalie was on my show yesterday night!! She was sick, though, so her voice was all gone and she was tired She did manage to pull out her boobs for us before crawling back into bed. Go Natalie! Then we fell asleep watching School of Rock. Somehow I knew how it was going to end…
Here’s your blarg pic:
